Tired
Hurt
Mad
Scared

I'm tired of always having to explain or defend what I want to do or why. I'm tired of feeling hurt because the things I like to do are unimportant to mu husband and him making sure I know that. I'm tired of being mad because I don't do what I want and bein mad at my husband for making sure I know he thinks the things I like to do are stupid and unimportant and be cause he thinks that I should agree. I am tired of being mad at him for thinking I should want to sit in the same room with him and watch shows I could care less about.

More importantly, I'm tired of being scared about my health. I have had an irregular heart beat for 3 days. It is making me frustrated. I am working on my weight and diet. I am trying to level out my electrolytes so the beat will return to normal. I want to feel good again. I want to feel confident that my health is great. I enjoyed the days of not having to worry about every ache and pain. I want to live free of fear of dying.

Finally, that brings me to the final thing I'm really tired of-----I'm really tired of thinking about death, dying, or what it will be like not to be alive (which I never want to know what that is like). I love life so much and all I want is the carefree days of LIVING!